What do you do for an encore? Part 3

  • Posted: November 13, 2012 
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Aka: a new and exciting path!  Plans were made.  I booked the workshop and the flight.  It occured to me I would need to take a cab from the airport to the hosts’ home.  That scared me.  It ALL scared me.  But I was going.

Everyone suggested this was a bad idea.  I hadn’t flown in 15+ years and had a panic attack when I did.  I am an extremely picky eater and naturally shy.  I ignored it all.  This would be the last fear I needed to conquer.  Except roaches which I had no desire to fight that fear!

The night before the flight i didn’t sleep at all.  My body shook as if I were wearing a swimsuit in the snow.  I arrived at the airport a nervous wreck only to be told my flight was delayed 3 hours!  I curled up in a ball and cried.  5 panicky hours (3 hour delay + 2 hour early arrival) in an airport!  I wanted to go home!  I thought about going home as an option.  I only live 10-15 minutes from John Wayne Airport.  I knew someone would pick me up.  But if I went home would I come back?  No. I knew i wouldn’t.  So I stayed.

After an hour or so of terror my body began to wear out and I started dozing.  Before I knew it I was boarding the plane!  I was actually sitting on a plane!  And I was calm.  And happy.

I arrived in Monterey 3 hours later than I had planned.  I hailed a cab and showed up on the doorstep of a complete stranger sometime after 9pm.  What was I doing?  Had I lost my mind?

next: what had I done?


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